There are several things in life that has to be learned. Other things can't be realized while there are also things that don't want to be understood. It exists. It is there. For some reason, it brings something new to the table but stabs you with the reality of randomness and life. Life was meant to be somewhat bittersweet but have you ever experienced something that is so good, it hurts? Something that requires your understanding but then tells you not to?
Truth hurts? Not always.
But indeed, the truth will set you free. Although painfully free or free but with the broken chains still dangling from your wrists or your legs.
I always said that love and logic could coexist because God would not give man a heart and a mind in one body if they could not be together. But who said coexistence was easy?
Sometimes people fail to learn how to manage these feelings and thoughts not because they don't want to but because they can not. And that is not their fault. I've blamed myself several times for what I have done thanks to the unending debate of logic and love but in the end, what I turn out to be is a victim of circumstance. Of course, most people turn it into a rather good excuse for failure to do something concerning the bonding of IQ and EQ.
Victim of circumstance. This is both the hardest and easiest way out. I could greatly attest to that. You can not blame anyone or anything except the situation and one of the hardest things in life is when you do not come across a good reason. Well, perhaps at least for me. After all, it is in human nature to look for reason, to know the cause not because one wants to learn from it but because it is so. The why, the how, the what...
Would I rather blame myself than say that I am a victim of circumstance? This is a question I still could not answer. Bittersweet things in life were never meant to be good but regardless of me knowing this, I can not help but to feel the sting of pain amidst the short-lived happiness that I am trying to keep myself warm in.
I want to be happy. Who doesn't? But there are times when no matter how much you want to be joyous and proud, something will happen. You try to move and bend it but the positive feeling fell into an abyss of what you don't know. The needles push through from below and while pricking yourself among the nasty thorns, you search for that tiny left-over feeling you dropped.
Blood will drip. Tears will fall. Curses will escape.
But then when your fingers touch that small spark you've been looking for, it will seem like it didn't matter at all.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
The Sin Of This Song
I just wrote the words and I'm not a musically inclined anything so excuse me. I did this for and with my friend Lanns. Well, yeah maybe a bit for myself but wthell. I don't know the tune. Lanns does, though. I was careful not to disclose the gender of the person the song is talking about for Lanns' sake. I feel for you, friend!! *hugs* I love the title, btw.
THE SIN THAT IS YOU
I would want to break away
From the sin that is you
From the darkness you engulf me in
In a way that feels so good
I run away from pain
And run away from hate
I run away from love
I have to run away from you
Chorus:
You reach out to me and take my hand
But you would never understand
It’s the sin of loving you
The sin that is you
You bend your words to comfort me
But I don’t think you’ll ever see
It’s the sin of loving you
The sin that is you
I feel that you might be fake
And the words that you say
I don’t know why I believe these lies
Why does it keep me alive?
I hold onto the pain
And douse myself in hate
Wash me with bitter drops
It hurts me so but I need you
•Your bittersweet kisses make me bleed
I don’t know if you could feel or see
Not that you mind
Not that you care
Not that you’d even be there
THE SIN THAT IS YOU
I would want to break away
From the sin that is you
From the darkness you engulf me in
In a way that feels so good
I run away from pain
And run away from hate
I run away from love
I have to run away from you
Chorus:
You reach out to me and take my hand
But you would never understand
It’s the sin of loving you
The sin that is you
You bend your words to comfort me
But I don’t think you’ll ever see
It’s the sin of loving you
The sin that is you
I feel that you might be fake
And the words that you say
I don’t know why I believe these lies
Why does it keep me alive?
I hold onto the pain
And douse myself in hate
Wash me with bitter drops
It hurts me so but I need you
•Your bittersweet kisses make me bleed
I don’t know if you could feel or see
Not that you mind
Not that you care
Not that you’d even be there
100 Effects Animé Has On Me And My Life
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100 Effects Animé Has On Me And My Life
1. I squeal “Happy Birthday, Rukawa Kaede!” every January 1 amidst the fireworks and noise.
2. I watched Spiderman 3 while dressed as Amane Misa
3. Ryu Hoshi is my childhood hero
4. When I am in a hurry walking and I sometimes wish I had a Butterfly Wing (pRO), a Fly Wing (pRO), a teleport skill, instant transmission (DBZ) and/or Shunpo.
5. I didn’t come to my graduation rehearsal when I was in 6th Grade because I had to watch Gundam Wing’s final episode.
6. When I was younger, I used to take notes in front of the TV while watching animé because I had no idea that the internet existed
7. I have a slight plan of naming my future son Sasuke, Ryu, Heero and Light.
8. I spent thirty minutes sitting on the floor of a department store while trying to figure out which of the Bleach pins I was going to buy. In the end, I ended up buying all four — two of Ichigo, one Ishida and one Byakuya.
9. I sometimes say/yell “Bankai”… Even when asleep.
10. I once squealed “Kame Hame Ha” while pulling out my notebook when I was in second grade. Up to this time, I don’t know why I did it.
11. When I was in 5th Grade, I talked my cousin into styling his hair a la Powell from Eto Rangers. We never speak about it now.
12. When I was in Elementary, I turned our living room into my art gallery by pinning all my animé fan art on the wall. Now, thank goodness for folders, envelopes and Deviantart.
13. I used to write fan fiction during class when I was in high school.
14. I have a friend whom I yell “Katon! Housenka No Jutsu!” at whenever I see him.
15. My cousin and I sometimes say “I am an avenger!” while poking each other with a squeaky hammer.
16. I saw a large picture of Uchiha Sasuke in the mall and I ran to it while frantically and practically fan girling over it while I squealed “Sasuke-kun! Sasuke-kun! Sasuke-kuuuuuuuuun!”
17. There was only one guy who made my head turn like I was seeing something that came to life — my cousin’s classmate who at first glance resembled HITSUGAYA TOUSHIRO in the flesh (yes, with the bang over the forehead!). A few more glances after and… Well, nah. But the first time was “WTF”.
18. I spent a lot of time explaining to a lot of people that the RukawaxSendoh (Slam Dunk) pairing was not actually canon.
19. There was a time when my cousins and I add “datte ba yo” to the end of our sentences. After a year or so, I was talking online to someone and he suddenly blurted out “English-ttebayo”. I can’t help but wear a stupid grin on my face whenever I remember it now.
20. There are times when I feel that singing a Jap song to me is romantic because not everyone understands the words. So far, there’s only one guy in the world who sang in Japanese for me and it was against his will. HAHAHAHAHA!
21. I draw Konoha and Uchiha symbols on my test paper, my notes and my hand-outs.
22. I found a white handkerchief while I was holding a pen and I drew the 6th Squad insignia on it before leaving it. I don’t know who owned it, though, so if you’re reading this… SORRY, I COULDN’T HELP IT!
23. One of my cellphone profiles is named “SEED Mode: On”. Two others are “PSM: On” and “PSM: off”. If you know Gundam SEED, you’ll know what I’m talking about.
24. I have a personalized Death Note where I’ve written horrible experiences, rants and rambles.
25. My parents and aunt bribed me with a Gundam Wing Model Kit (Wing Zero Custom) for me to take the entrance test of the school they wanted me to enter in High School. It was an all-girls school and I really didn’t want to be surrounded by pure girls. Luckily, our batch was the first one to have males in it.
26. I speak Tagajaplish (Tagalog-Japanese-English) and sometimes Japlish (Japanese-English) and I’ve been doing it quite a lot lately that my friends were all going “wtf” when I called them up one time and asked, “Oi, you idiots, anata tachi doko? Bakit ang ingay!” (Hey, you idiots, where are you guys? Why is it noisy?)
27. I sometimes add “desu” or “desshou” or “ne” to my sentences.
28. My voice changes when I speak in Japanese.
29. I went amuck in front of my computer when my friend showed me a scanned copy of a Bleach review that had wrong information on it. I was about to mail the authors right away and I actually had someone telling me to, “HEY! CALM DOWN OKAY! BREATHE PROPERLY! INHALE AND EXHALE, YOU BAKA!”
30. I spit my orange juice when I heard someone call Ishida Uryuu as “ORYO” and I probably changed color when they began talking about “Ichigo becoming Captain”. I told them to read the manga online for their own sake lest they would have to put up with me rattling off about the Bleach chapters right from the end of the Soul Society arc.
31. A friend saw a doujin that was supposed to be a Naruto ending. He thought it was the ending and I ended up lecturing him about doujin and stuff. He was like, “Okay. Easy ka lang. Wag mo ko pagalitan.” (Okay. Take it easy. Don’t scold me.)
32. Whenever my friends see anything related to animé, they remember me.
33. I have designed a Shinigami robe-inspired outfit to wear in a formal gathering. Hahahahaha!
34. I listen to animé songs and suddenly go “WAAAAAH! SO TOUCHING!” on some lines and people go like “wtf”…
35. While I was asleep, I suddenly got up and posed like I was holding a mace and yelled, “Teka! Ayan, hahampasin ko na yung Roda Frog!” (Okay, here I go! I’m going to thwack the Roda Frog!)
36. I lost sleep figuring out the time line regarding my Bleach fan fiction.
37. I threw a fit in my cousin’s house when I heard the Tagalog Bleach dubs. THE QUINCY ARCHER IS NOT A COOKIE!! Stop calling him “ORYO”!!!
38. I shrieked in a known bookstore upon seeing a whole shelf full of manga I couldn’t buy at the same time.
39. When I was in high school, my parents told me to wait for them in an animé specialty store and when they came back, I was two to three thousand pesos poorer with my hands full of animé stuff. They never left me alone there ever since.
40. Some of my classmates called me “Heero” for my love of Gundam Wing.
41. I used to have a signature move known as my “Shoryukyaku” (I have no idea who called it that) because my fist flies in what seems to be an uppercut and my body twists to do a kick. I was only able to hit ONE GUY with that.
42. I brought a portable TV to school to watch animé series that were being aired locally while on my way home. It had a really long antenna that I could poke people with.
43. My cousin computed how much I’ve spent buying those laminated cards from an animé specialty store. When he was done, he told me I could’ve just bought a cell phone instead.
44. I threw a tantrum and cried like hell when my dad purposely crumpled the Heero Yuy fan art I SLAVED OVER when I was twelve. I didn’t speak to him for three days.
45. If I’m in the middle of plot-construction for my fan fiction, you better not disturb me or I’m going to make sure you catch hell if I do.
46. I accidentally called my then-boyfriend “Sasuke-kun” and/or “Raito-kun” and he glared at me while saying, “Wtf, you want me to show you what that guy can’t do?” I just replied, “Uh… Noes.”
47. I go “ARAAAAAAAAA!” so often that even one of my friends now say “Ara”!
48. I have met countless people thanks to animé.
49. I was with four guys and we were standing in the middle of a park…
Me: Why the hell are we conversing like this in the middle of the park? We look like Sentai.
Guy1: Yeah. (points to my then-boyfriend) The leader (points to me) and his girl… (Points to guy beside him) A tall guy… (Points to another guy beside me) A geek… (Points to himself) And a cool guy.
After that, only he and I laughed. It took several moments before the three other guys realized what he was talking about.
50. I say yes with “HAAAAAAAAI!” and ask with “NAAAAANDA YO?”
51. My cousin and I were in a large drugstore and we were standing at opposite ends of an aisle. She was telling me something and I didn’t understand what she wanted me to do. So out of something, I just yelled across the aisle, “DOU SURU II YO!?” (What do you want me to do!?) She just blinked at me saying, “Ano? Gaga ka, minumura mo ba ko?” (What? You idiot, are you swearing at me?) I just shrugged and grumbled. The other people were looking at me and I didn’t realize I was the only one who understood what I said until I was out of the store.
52. Friend: (pointing to strawberry candy with limbs on stick) It’ll be fun sucking strawberry-boy!!
Me: (glaring while threatening to hit with paper bag) YOU SERIOUSLY HAVE TO REPHRASE THAT!!!!!!
If you know Bleach so well, you’d understand. I explained it to my friend and she just wanted to kill me.
53. My friends and I saw a large picture of Cloud Strife on one stall in the mall and we were like, “MINE! MINE! MINE!”
54. I MADE my friends watch FF7 AC and one wanted her hair cut like Tifa Lockheart’s but ended up with Kadaj’s look. Hahahaha!
55. My friends were telling me to bring CD’s to watch and I blurted out, “Oh, let’s watch X!” I was talking about CLAMP’s X/99 but the way two of my guy friends grinned gave me the idea that they thought I was talking about something perverse.
56. Whenever I read something so exciting about Naruto, I immediately send text messages to my cousin about it.
57. My cousins and I watched the final episode of “Knock Out!” and I was the only female who was screaming “Woah!” when Ippo used his techniques in a sequence.
58. When I first cosplayed, I was only able to sleep for three hours or so and I was unable to eat breakfast at lunch from all the excitement during the event.
59. Generally, when I’m in an animé convention, my body enters a weird state. I do not recognize the need to eat, drink or urinate unless highly necessary. I usually only feel such things AFTER I’ve left the convention. I tend to be SO hungry, so thirsty and need to use the bathroom quite badly.
60. In the college class prophecy during my sophomore year, I was the girl with the Gundams. And, yeah, I was the one who wrote it.
61. I wailed at the utterly beautiful ending of Death Note and my mom, my grandmother and my cousin all thought I was nuts. After that, I sent text messages saying “WAAAAAAAAAAAH! YAGAMI LIGHT!!” Fortunately for me, they’re kind of used to it.
62. I was also wailing while trying to knot someone’s neck with his collar upon witnessing Chrno Crusade’s ending.
63. I dragged my cousin in front of the PC and MADE her look at the Rock Musical Bleach cast while comparing them to their animé counter parts. Surprisingly, she found it rather interesting how the whole thing was made.
64. I have watched Rock Musical Bleach: Saien like a hundred times or so. It’s the only one I have a copy on DVD. If I had the other musicals, I’d probably watch it over and over as well.
65. I do the Hare Hare Yukai dance. I had my fiancé learn the dance, too.
66. We were getting ready for exams and I was threatening my genius of a friend that I was going to use my Sharingan to copy his answers.
67. We have a Shitzu that my mom named Jones and he rolls and jumps around so much that I funnily came up with a release command for him: “Roll, Ashiogi Jones”
68. When I was eight, I taught my four year-old cousin the “Hadouken” (which we stupidly pronounced as “Aduken”) and I got scolded for it. What gives??
69. I wasted half of a fresh intermediate pad trying to draw Super Saiyan Son Goku from memory when I was in third grade. I was just nine! Spare me!
70. My cousins and I drew stars on the billiards spheres… Boy, did we get scolded.
71. Just lately, a guy told me “You know, just thinking of you makes me smile.” Not getting the hint that he was trying to hit on me, I just replied “That’s my reiatsu, man. Sorry.”
72. When I was in my junior year of high school, a classmate was asking about something and I wanted to give her a hard time. I told her that if she could sing 1/2 (Rurouni Kenshin’s 2nd Opening Song), I’d tell her what she wanted to know. I don’t really remember what it was she wanted to know so badly but I sure won’t forget how she tried so hard to learn that song.
73. I glare and say “Omae o korosu!” (I’ll kill you!) all thanks to my Heero Yuy.
74. I’ve been watching and listening to animé for a time so long that even my dad knew Yuyu Hakusho’s opening as well as Gundam Wing’s. He was kind of disappointed when we weren’t able to watch Kurama’s fight with Karasu when it was aired locally.
75. I was the reason for a beach outing’s delay because I insisted on watching a certain Gundam Wing episode that was to be aired locally. They would’ve just left me if they could.
76. While everyone else covered their books with magazine pages, mine were wrapped in fan art.
77. I once vandalized a wall with a giant drawing of Eto Rangers’ Powell. Don’t fret. It was just chalk… Hard to remove chalk. Yuk yuk yuk yuk!
78. In third grade, I had a list of all the spheres that Yaiba acquired. I don’t remember much about it now but I still have a photographic memory of what the list looked like.
79. Still in third grade, my cousins and our playmates and I had a chant: “TORA TORA UMA! TOOOORA TORA UMA LIBILIBIDO!” If you know Yaiba, you know what I’m talking about. I’m just surprised that I’ve met two younger people who have no idea who Yaiba Kurogane is and what relation he has to “The Sphere of Thundergod”.
80. Another chant was “VADZULA ON! VADZULA ON! VADZULA ON!” Gawd.
81. I found out about “Tokyo Mew Mew” via a Chinese cable channel. I found it somewhat amusing and I watch it even if it’s in Chinese. On the same note, I watched pure Japanese animé in Wowow. This is how I found out about “Vann Dread”, “Gatekeepers”, “Steel Angel Kurumi” and more animé who I recognize but do not know the title.
82. In my first year of college life, a professor asked us to submit a creative reaction paper regarding a play. While everyone submitted pages worth of words, I turned in several pages of a reaction paper… worth of colored manga! To the same effect, in my 3rd year of High School, I drew out colored manga where Kurapica was discussing atoms and its laws to Killua. In 4th year High School, I drew fifteen pages of manga — each page was as large as a cartolina — as part of a school project. I also drew an animé movie poster of “The Abduction Of Sita” when I was in 2nd Year High School.
83. Even before I learned about Fushigi Yuugi, I made my own manga about a girl being sucked into a book along with other people whom she had no idea about. When Fushigi Yuugi came out, I was so disappointed that I discontinued it. I then created another story that was about “magical dolls”. Six years after that, Rozen Maiden came out. The coincidence, my dears!
84. In second year high school, the WHOLE CLASS was forced to join a United Nations Pageant and the question for me was: “If you were to be an animé character, who would you be?” My answer: “M-M-Matte, matte… Anooooou… Eetou desu ne…”
85. When I was in sixth grade, I was envied by several girls because I had all the guys flocking around me to request for fan art — Saber Marionette J fan art. So ecchi, those kids! Meh, I did the requests, though.
86. When I was in second grade, I had a small notebook where I drew Daimos fan art. Yes, Daimos.
87. I used to sit in front of the TV and COPY the characters on screen for reference.
88. I watched DBZ’s Movie about Cooler over and over and over when I was in fourth grade that I was able to do story-telling for it complete with the exact dialog and weird gestures.
89. My cousins and I had bicycles, which we named after the B’ts (Bits) from B’t X. Mine was Shadow X, Karen’s 2nd B’t.
90. I taught my young cousins to yell “Ama Kikirou Ryu No Hirameki” as well as taught them how to tell one Gundam Wing pilot from another… by number.
91. The most I’ve spent on an internet surfing spree in a café is around 400 pesos. Back then, it was 30 pesos per hour. Yes, I was there for over 12 hours searching for animé and animé and animé. I managed to use up a box of diskettes. There were no blank CD’s back then.
92. I spent all night playing Shaman King: Spirit of Shaman because I had to beat the part with the cave and it was all in Kana! I was a slow Kana reader and it took me all night to figure out the whole trial and error (the choices have an order of precedence, I swear) but I was able to pull it off. However, I was asleep during my first subject the next day.
93. I have a friend whose younger brother looks so much like Naruto (even the hair) that I threatened to tie him to the bed post and stuff him in an orange jumpsuit THEN take his pictures.
94. I actually debated with my aunts why animé helps me in not being dull. It actually takes beings with a certain level of intelligence to be able to fully understand and appreciate “Death Note”, you know.
95. I was cleaning an office once and there was an animé song playing on the PC. I sang along with it while minding my business. I didn’t notice that there were several instances that the guy in front of the computer would turn the volume down to see if I really knew the song. When the song was over, he suddenly exclaimed, “OMG, I LOVE YOU!”
96. I MADE my cousin's nephew wear blue hair wax to style his hair a la Toushiro Hitsugaya. Would've done it with white but we didn't have that on us.
97. I got scolded in the middle of class when I was in fourth grade because I was slouching while trying to draw the Ranma 1/2 cast while my teacher was trying to explain the ecosystem.
98. Whenever any of my friends come across anything that has anything to do with animé, they remember me and remind themselves to tell me about what they’ve seen so as they could watch my reaction… Yeah, I’m kind of like those Yakitate! Japan judges for them.
99. When the subbed version of Rock Musical Bleach Live Bankai Show came out, I was talking to a friend via YM and he had no idea whatsoever about what I was watching but I ranted about Shuji Hayashi and Tatsuya Isaka and how Te Wo Tsunagou should’ve been more IchiRuki-ish. The reaction I had were one of the following: (1) “What the hell are you talking about?” and (2) “You’re nuts. Nuts, I tell you! Screws gone loose!”
100. I’ve written (A LOT OF) “You’ve had too much –insert animé/game here- when…” Lists. I used to have a site about it but I think I lost it. Uwah!
100 Effects Animé Has On Me And My Life
1. I squeal “Happy Birthday, Rukawa Kaede!” every January 1 amidst the fireworks and noise.
2. I watched Spiderman 3 while dressed as Amane Misa
3. Ryu Hoshi is my childhood hero
4. When I am in a hurry walking and I sometimes wish I had a Butterfly Wing (pRO), a Fly Wing (pRO), a teleport skill, instant transmission (DBZ) and/or Shunpo.
5. I didn’t come to my graduation rehearsal when I was in 6th Grade because I had to watch Gundam Wing’s final episode.
6. When I was younger, I used to take notes in front of the TV while watching animé because I had no idea that the internet existed
7. I have a slight plan of naming my future son Sasuke, Ryu, Heero and Light.
8. I spent thirty minutes sitting on the floor of a department store while trying to figure out which of the Bleach pins I was going to buy. In the end, I ended up buying all four — two of Ichigo, one Ishida and one Byakuya.
9. I sometimes say/yell “Bankai”… Even when asleep.
10. I once squealed “Kame Hame Ha” while pulling out my notebook when I was in second grade. Up to this time, I don’t know why I did it.
11. When I was in 5th Grade, I talked my cousin into styling his hair a la Powell from Eto Rangers. We never speak about it now.
12. When I was in Elementary, I turned our living room into my art gallery by pinning all my animé fan art on the wall. Now, thank goodness for folders, envelopes and Deviantart.
13. I used to write fan fiction during class when I was in high school.
14. I have a friend whom I yell “Katon! Housenka No Jutsu!” at whenever I see him.
15. My cousin and I sometimes say “I am an avenger!” while poking each other with a squeaky hammer.
16. I saw a large picture of Uchiha Sasuke in the mall and I ran to it while frantically and practically fan girling over it while I squealed “Sasuke-kun! Sasuke-kun! Sasuke-kuuuuuuuuun!”
17. There was only one guy who made my head turn like I was seeing something that came to life — my cousin’s classmate who at first glance resembled HITSUGAYA TOUSHIRO in the flesh (yes, with the bang over the forehead!). A few more glances after and… Well, nah. But the first time was “WTF”.
18. I spent a lot of time explaining to a lot of people that the RukawaxSendoh (Slam Dunk) pairing was not actually canon.
19. There was a time when my cousins and I add “datte ba yo” to the end of our sentences. After a year or so, I was talking online to someone and he suddenly blurted out “English-ttebayo”. I can’t help but wear a stupid grin on my face whenever I remember it now.
20. There are times when I feel that singing a Jap song to me is romantic because not everyone understands the words. So far, there’s only one guy in the world who sang in Japanese for me and it was against his will. HAHAHAHAHA!
21. I draw Konoha and Uchiha symbols on my test paper, my notes and my hand-outs.
22. I found a white handkerchief while I was holding a pen and I drew the 6th Squad insignia on it before leaving it. I don’t know who owned it, though, so if you’re reading this… SORRY, I COULDN’T HELP IT!
23. One of my cellphone profiles is named “SEED Mode: On”. Two others are “PSM: On” and “PSM: off”. If you know Gundam SEED, you’ll know what I’m talking about.
24. I have a personalized Death Note where I’ve written horrible experiences, rants and rambles.
25. My parents and aunt bribed me with a Gundam Wing Model Kit (Wing Zero Custom) for me to take the entrance test of the school they wanted me to enter in High School. It was an all-girls school and I really didn’t want to be surrounded by pure girls. Luckily, our batch was the first one to have males in it.
26. I speak Tagajaplish (Tagalog-Japanese-English) and sometimes Japlish (Japanese-English) and I’ve been doing it quite a lot lately that my friends were all going “wtf” when I called them up one time and asked, “Oi, you idiots, anata tachi doko? Bakit ang ingay!” (Hey, you idiots, where are you guys? Why is it noisy?)
27. I sometimes add “desu” or “desshou” or “ne” to my sentences.
28. My voice changes when I speak in Japanese.
29. I went amuck in front of my computer when my friend showed me a scanned copy of a Bleach review that had wrong information on it. I was about to mail the authors right away and I actually had someone telling me to, “HEY! CALM DOWN OKAY! BREATHE PROPERLY! INHALE AND EXHALE, YOU BAKA!”
30. I spit my orange juice when I heard someone call Ishida Uryuu as “ORYO” and I probably changed color when they began talking about “Ichigo becoming Captain”. I told them to read the manga online for their own sake lest they would have to put up with me rattling off about the Bleach chapters right from the end of the Soul Society arc.
31. A friend saw a doujin that was supposed to be a Naruto ending. He thought it was the ending and I ended up lecturing him about doujin and stuff. He was like, “Okay. Easy ka lang. Wag mo ko pagalitan.” (Okay. Take it easy. Don’t scold me.)
32. Whenever my friends see anything related to animé, they remember me.
33. I have designed a Shinigami robe-inspired outfit to wear in a formal gathering. Hahahahaha!
34. I listen to animé songs and suddenly go “WAAAAAH! SO TOUCHING!” on some lines and people go like “wtf”…
35. While I was asleep, I suddenly got up and posed like I was holding a mace and yelled, “Teka! Ayan, hahampasin ko na yung Roda Frog!” (Okay, here I go! I’m going to thwack the Roda Frog!)
36. I lost sleep figuring out the time line regarding my Bleach fan fiction.
37. I threw a fit in my cousin’s house when I heard the Tagalog Bleach dubs. THE QUINCY ARCHER IS NOT A COOKIE!! Stop calling him “ORYO”!!!
38. I shrieked in a known bookstore upon seeing a whole shelf full of manga I couldn’t buy at the same time.
39. When I was in high school, my parents told me to wait for them in an animé specialty store and when they came back, I was two to three thousand pesos poorer with my hands full of animé stuff. They never left me alone there ever since.
40. Some of my classmates called me “Heero” for my love of Gundam Wing.
41. I used to have a signature move known as my “Shoryukyaku” (I have no idea who called it that) because my fist flies in what seems to be an uppercut and my body twists to do a kick. I was only able to hit ONE GUY with that.
42. I brought a portable TV to school to watch animé series that were being aired locally while on my way home. It had a really long antenna that I could poke people with.
43. My cousin computed how much I’ve spent buying those laminated cards from an animé specialty store. When he was done, he told me I could’ve just bought a cell phone instead.
44. I threw a tantrum and cried like hell when my dad purposely crumpled the Heero Yuy fan art I SLAVED OVER when I was twelve. I didn’t speak to him for three days.
45. If I’m in the middle of plot-construction for my fan fiction, you better not disturb me or I’m going to make sure you catch hell if I do.
46. I accidentally called my then-boyfriend “Sasuke-kun” and/or “Raito-kun” and he glared at me while saying, “Wtf, you want me to show you what that guy can’t do?” I just replied, “Uh… Noes.”
47. I go “ARAAAAAAAAA!” so often that even one of my friends now say “Ara”!
48. I have met countless people thanks to animé.
49. I was with four guys and we were standing in the middle of a park…
Me: Why the hell are we conversing like this in the middle of the park? We look like Sentai.
Guy1: Yeah. (points to my then-boyfriend) The leader (points to me) and his girl… (Points to guy beside him) A tall guy… (Points to another guy beside me) A geek… (Points to himself) And a cool guy.
After that, only he and I laughed. It took several moments before the three other guys realized what he was talking about.
50. I say yes with “HAAAAAAAAI!” and ask with “NAAAAANDA YO?”
51. My cousin and I were in a large drugstore and we were standing at opposite ends of an aisle. She was telling me something and I didn’t understand what she wanted me to do. So out of something, I just yelled across the aisle, “DOU SURU II YO!?” (What do you want me to do!?) She just blinked at me saying, “Ano? Gaga ka, minumura mo ba ko?” (What? You idiot, are you swearing at me?) I just shrugged and grumbled. The other people were looking at me and I didn’t realize I was the only one who understood what I said until I was out of the store.
52. Friend: (pointing to strawberry candy with limbs on stick) It’ll be fun sucking strawberry-boy!!
Me: (glaring while threatening to hit with paper bag) YOU SERIOUSLY HAVE TO REPHRASE THAT!!!!!!
If you know Bleach so well, you’d understand. I explained it to my friend and she just wanted to kill me.
53. My friends and I saw a large picture of Cloud Strife on one stall in the mall and we were like, “MINE! MINE! MINE!”
54. I MADE my friends watch FF7 AC and one wanted her hair cut like Tifa Lockheart’s but ended up with Kadaj’s look. Hahahaha!
55. My friends were telling me to bring CD’s to watch and I blurted out, “Oh, let’s watch X!” I was talking about CLAMP’s X/99 but the way two of my guy friends grinned gave me the idea that they thought I was talking about something perverse.
56. Whenever I read something so exciting about Naruto, I immediately send text messages to my cousin about it.
57. My cousins and I watched the final episode of “Knock Out!” and I was the only female who was screaming “Woah!” when Ippo used his techniques in a sequence.
58. When I first cosplayed, I was only able to sleep for three hours or so and I was unable to eat breakfast at lunch from all the excitement during the event.
59. Generally, when I’m in an animé convention, my body enters a weird state. I do not recognize the need to eat, drink or urinate unless highly necessary. I usually only feel such things AFTER I’ve left the convention. I tend to be SO hungry, so thirsty and need to use the bathroom quite badly.
60. In the college class prophecy during my sophomore year, I was the girl with the Gundams. And, yeah, I was the one who wrote it.
61. I wailed at the utterly beautiful ending of Death Note and my mom, my grandmother and my cousin all thought I was nuts. After that, I sent text messages saying “WAAAAAAAAAAAH! YAGAMI LIGHT!!” Fortunately for me, they’re kind of used to it.
62. I was also wailing while trying to knot someone’s neck with his collar upon witnessing Chrno Crusade’s ending.
63. I dragged my cousin in front of the PC and MADE her look at the Rock Musical Bleach cast while comparing them to their animé counter parts. Surprisingly, she found it rather interesting how the whole thing was made.
64. I have watched Rock Musical Bleach: Saien like a hundred times or so. It’s the only one I have a copy on DVD. If I had the other musicals, I’d probably watch it over and over as well.
65. I do the Hare Hare Yukai dance. I had my fiancé learn the dance, too.
66. We were getting ready for exams and I was threatening my genius of a friend that I was going to use my Sharingan to copy his answers.
67. We have a Shitzu that my mom named Jones and he rolls and jumps around so much that I funnily came up with a release command for him: “Roll, Ashiogi Jones”
68. When I was eight, I taught my four year-old cousin the “Hadouken” (which we stupidly pronounced as “Aduken”) and I got scolded for it. What gives??
69. I wasted half of a fresh intermediate pad trying to draw Super Saiyan Son Goku from memory when I was in third grade. I was just nine! Spare me!
70. My cousins and I drew stars on the billiards spheres… Boy, did we get scolded.
71. Just lately, a guy told me “You know, just thinking of you makes me smile.” Not getting the hint that he was trying to hit on me, I just replied “That’s my reiatsu, man. Sorry.”
72. When I was in my junior year of high school, a classmate was asking about something and I wanted to give her a hard time. I told her that if she could sing 1/2 (Rurouni Kenshin’s 2nd Opening Song), I’d tell her what she wanted to know. I don’t really remember what it was she wanted to know so badly but I sure won’t forget how she tried so hard to learn that song.
73. I glare and say “Omae o korosu!” (I’ll kill you!) all thanks to my Heero Yuy.
74. I’ve been watching and listening to animé for a time so long that even my dad knew Yuyu Hakusho’s opening as well as Gundam Wing’s. He was kind of disappointed when we weren’t able to watch Kurama’s fight with Karasu when it was aired locally.
75. I was the reason for a beach outing’s delay because I insisted on watching a certain Gundam Wing episode that was to be aired locally. They would’ve just left me if they could.
76. While everyone else covered their books with magazine pages, mine were wrapped in fan art.
77. I once vandalized a wall with a giant drawing of Eto Rangers’ Powell. Don’t fret. It was just chalk… Hard to remove chalk. Yuk yuk yuk yuk!
78. In third grade, I had a list of all the spheres that Yaiba acquired. I don’t remember much about it now but I still have a photographic memory of what the list looked like.
79. Still in third grade, my cousins and our playmates and I had a chant: “TORA TORA UMA! TOOOORA TORA UMA LIBILIBIDO!” If you know Yaiba, you know what I’m talking about. I’m just surprised that I’ve met two younger people who have no idea who Yaiba Kurogane is and what relation he has to “The Sphere of Thundergod”.
80. Another chant was “VADZULA ON! VADZULA ON! VADZULA ON!” Gawd.
81. I found out about “Tokyo Mew Mew” via a Chinese cable channel. I found it somewhat amusing and I watch it even if it’s in Chinese. On the same note, I watched pure Japanese animé in Wowow. This is how I found out about “Vann Dread”, “Gatekeepers”, “Steel Angel Kurumi” and more animé who I recognize but do not know the title.
82. In my first year of college life, a professor asked us to submit a creative reaction paper regarding a play. While everyone submitted pages worth of words, I turned in several pages of a reaction paper… worth of colored manga! To the same effect, in my 3rd year of High School, I drew out colored manga where Kurapica was discussing atoms and its laws to Killua. In 4th year High School, I drew fifteen pages of manga — each page was as large as a cartolina — as part of a school project. I also drew an animé movie poster of “The Abduction Of Sita” when I was in 2nd Year High School.
83. Even before I learned about Fushigi Yuugi, I made my own manga about a girl being sucked into a book along with other people whom she had no idea about. When Fushigi Yuugi came out, I was so disappointed that I discontinued it. I then created another story that was about “magical dolls”. Six years after that, Rozen Maiden came out. The coincidence, my dears!
84. In second year high school, the WHOLE CLASS was forced to join a United Nations Pageant and the question for me was: “If you were to be an animé character, who would you be?” My answer: “M-M-Matte, matte… Anooooou… Eetou desu ne…”
85. When I was in sixth grade, I was envied by several girls because I had all the guys flocking around me to request for fan art — Saber Marionette J fan art. So ecchi, those kids! Meh, I did the requests, though.
86. When I was in second grade, I had a small notebook where I drew Daimos fan art. Yes, Daimos.
87. I used to sit in front of the TV and COPY the characters on screen for reference.
88. I watched DBZ’s Movie about Cooler over and over and over when I was in fourth grade that I was able to do story-telling for it complete with the exact dialog and weird gestures.
89. My cousins and I had bicycles, which we named after the B’ts (Bits) from B’t X. Mine was Shadow X, Karen’s 2nd B’t.
90. I taught my young cousins to yell “Ama Kikirou Ryu No Hirameki” as well as taught them how to tell one Gundam Wing pilot from another… by number.
91. The most I’ve spent on an internet surfing spree in a café is around 400 pesos. Back then, it was 30 pesos per hour. Yes, I was there for over 12 hours searching for animé and animé and animé. I managed to use up a box of diskettes. There were no blank CD’s back then.
92. I spent all night playing Shaman King: Spirit of Shaman because I had to beat the part with the cave and it was all in Kana! I was a slow Kana reader and it took me all night to figure out the whole trial and error (the choices have an order of precedence, I swear) but I was able to pull it off. However, I was asleep during my first subject the next day.
93. I have a friend whose younger brother looks so much like Naruto (even the hair) that I threatened to tie him to the bed post and stuff him in an orange jumpsuit THEN take his pictures.
94. I actually debated with my aunts why animé helps me in not being dull. It actually takes beings with a certain level of intelligence to be able to fully understand and appreciate “Death Note”, you know.
95. I was cleaning an office once and there was an animé song playing on the PC. I sang along with it while minding my business. I didn’t notice that there were several instances that the guy in front of the computer would turn the volume down to see if I really knew the song. When the song was over, he suddenly exclaimed, “OMG, I LOVE YOU!”
96. I MADE my cousin's nephew wear blue hair wax to style his hair a la Toushiro Hitsugaya. Would've done it with white but we didn't have that on us.
97. I got scolded in the middle of class when I was in fourth grade because I was slouching while trying to draw the Ranma 1/2 cast while my teacher was trying to explain the ecosystem.
98. Whenever any of my friends come across anything that has anything to do with animé, they remember me and remind themselves to tell me about what they’ve seen so as they could watch my reaction… Yeah, I’m kind of like those Yakitate! Japan judges for them.
99. When the subbed version of Rock Musical Bleach Live Bankai Show came out, I was talking to a friend via YM and he had no idea whatsoever about what I was watching but I ranted about Shuji Hayashi and Tatsuya Isaka and how Te Wo Tsunagou should’ve been more IchiRuki-ish. The reaction I had were one of the following: (1) “What the hell are you talking about?” and (2) “You’re nuts. Nuts, I tell you! Screws gone loose!”
100. I’ve written (A LOT OF) “You’ve had too much –insert animé/game here- when…” Lists. I used to have a site about it but I think I lost it. Uwah!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
First Post
I'm moving my blog because of the URL. Yes, it's easier to find this blog since I'm known generally as Xairylle. Hopefully, it'll also be easier to remember. Haha. Me ish happy. Well, more posts in the near future. I lurfsh my IchiRuki layout! Did it myself! Lacks color but it's IchiRuki. Yaay!
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